April 2025 – Luna By The Lake With Cake

No Car = No Pool 😔

This past winter I have been a sadly very landlocked mermaid. I, this past winter, for financial reasons ended up getting rid of my car. It had so many problems, however I miss having a vehicle so much. I live in a part of the country with extremely limited public transit and very few pools. So, I miss swimming so much. It is one of my favorite exercise and pretty much impossible to overdo it with, unlike when I try to play with my siblings on Easter and nearly give myself an asthma attack.

I have 5 younger siblings, and I’m 18 years older than the youngest one. The 3 I was playing with on Easter wanted to play tag and capture the flag which was awesome!! However, my 3 siblings are all elite hockey players for their age. We ran around outside in the cold for 2.5 hours. They weren’t even tired!!! I miss when I used to be able to do that, but even then I don’t think I ever had a lack of limit the way those 3 do. Swimming never does that to me, probably because I’m not breathing a lot of the time, and the motions you use to mermaid are slow big motions so they don’t put as much of a strain on me.

I’ve also had to recycle a lot of older swims for my mermaiding shorts to keep consistent on my YouTube channel at least on the shorts side of it. I feel bad for reusing the same content this much. People like it! I’ve had success with it, but for some reason it just bothers me as a creator.

Thanks for reading my grumbling. I hope you have a lovely day! Drink some water, eat good food, and get some rest. See you next time!

lolita fashion

So…. I got really into Pro-Wrestling

Here’s my outfit I wore out clubbing with my friend, inspired by a combo of Rhea Ripley and Iyo Sky’s style. My hair is a simplified version of Iyo’s side braids, and the makeup is a blend.

So, when I was really little, I loved watching wrestling with my dad. Until it got banned in the house because I told a little old lady at the store to “Suck it” because I saw it on TV. My mom was not happy. I’ve been seeking more glimmers in my life recently and apparently pro-wrestling is one of them. There is a video of me having “beaten” my dad and standing on top of him giving my own “mic work” holding a plastic little WWE belt. Coming back to it I have been pleasantly surprised to see the diversity of people involved, promos given in multiple languages, and that women get almost equal screen time now. It feels even better to watch it now. (Probably because Vince McMahon was a crazy person, we’ll see how his trial goes)

Wrestling is ridiculous, and I love it. Logan Paul is a character now?? Which feels surreal, and I find it hilarious. He’s just playing himself and getting scolded by older wrestlers and told repeatedly no one is there to see him. As an art form I love how much permission it gives itself to experiment and be silly. I find it inspiring. I want to make more “bad art” because of it. Some of the storylines are genuinely hilarious, or heartwarming. I also really admire the dedication these people have to an extremely specific craft.

I don’t think I’ve talked about this on my social media much, but martial arts have been an extremely important part of my life. When I was little I did Tae Kwon Do which seriously helped my family manage my adhd before I had access to medication for it. (I no longer take medication as I have largely grown out of the condition, but I definitely needed it for my adolescence and am so grateful that it exists) I remember having a birthday party with my friends I made at that dojo and my teacher having a little singing hamster that sand “Everybody was Kung Fu Fighting” Eventually after about I think 2 years, I started hockey and my parents no longer had the time or money for me to do both sports. However, at 11 I joined my current dojo that I have been going to on and off for 16 years! Had I been more consistent, my Shihan says I probably would be a black belt by now. I am currently working on preparing for my green belt. I am also considered an excellent fighter in my dojo, given my experience I have a good idea of what fighting looks like.

When I first started telling people I had gotten into wrestling a lot of people’s reaction was “You know it isn’t real, right?” Which is very funny to me, because absolutely I can tell it’s not real. But it makes it no less impressive, being able to safely choreograph fights with a scene partner is insanely challenging! Trying not to injure someone while fighting is much harder than you think. The pure athleticism and control, mixed with the campiness of the acting is so cool. I also love all of the theme songs.

I’m definitely thinking of trying to include more about my martial arts into my content going forward. In conclusion, I am so excited for Wrestlemania this weekend.

Drink some water, eat good food, and get some rest! Have a great day everyone. See you next time!

lolita fashion

Time is going by way too fast

I can’t believe it’s already April, it’s been almost a month since I last posted and it feels like this past month just completely passed me by. I’ve had a good month though. I worked on continuing to finish my major declutter for this year. I am tonight working on disassembling a bureau I’ve had forever. I made a post on here about it. I’m keeping that beautiful mirror. But, I realized that the back wood of the drawers had started to degrade and rot. It’s time to let it go. Something about that feels weirdly personal for me. I’ve been getting rid of a lot of things I’ve had since I was little. Maybe, I’m just someone who sees symbolism in everything and romanticizes a lot, however it feels almost like permission to move on from the past in some ways. I don’t get into a lot of details on my socials typically because of internet safety, but there have been some challenging pieces of my life, especially in the early years. Somehow, this feels like actually letting go.

I inherited a habit to cling onto objects from my mom. She used to get upset when I didn’t hold onto something she had deemed important for me, so I think I learned to put a bit too much importance into physical things. However, people and relationships aren’t those physical things, and we’re allowed to design lives and spaces that fit us. Doing that doesn’t erase your feelings for people or make you “fake”, like a lot of other alternative people I feel as if I had that fear of things being considered a “phase” and if you ever grew out of it then that meant it was never real. I think real people can’t be static and there‘s a lot of pressure for people to live in their pasts.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with acknowledging that your past experiences have affected and shaped you, but I think we can overglorify the person we once were. I enjoy a lot of positive, warm, inspirational content, but I kind of resent the idea that “you can go back to who you were before the world hurt you” I don’t think you can ever go back. I think that’s its own blessing, that we don’t appreciate enough, and I have just now learned to be grateful for. I wouldn’t have any of the absolutely wonderful people I have in my life now if I hadn’t learned to let some things go. And even though I have some practice now, it’s still so hard. I don’t know how to let go of certain things still, but I’m proud of the work I’ve done so far.

To loop this back around to the topics this blog is usually about, I also donated a good chunk of my old Lolita wardrobe to a local thrift store recently. I kept some brand I’m planning on giving to my comm members. It felt like I was committing some sort of grievous Lolita fashion sin! I, then realized, that was kind of silly. I had been trying to sell these pieces on and off for awhile, and I just needed to move on from them. My husband greatly appreciates the extra space in the house. A surprising, but wonderful result of me doing this was finding that I love all of my outfits recently. I feel good in everything. I didn’t realize how many clothes I just kept because I had them, and that I didn’t feel good in them. I’m happy to be able to keep working on living my life a little better each day. Even though this is going way too fast.

I hope you all drink some water, eat good food, and get some rest. See you next time!